Hearts and Headlights

Keep driving because the parking lot's full.
All the good ones are taken
And all that's left are handicapped
Stalls that even I'm not
Damaged enough to park my heart in.

Keep driving but the gas is low.
I circle the streets that I have come to know
And despise. The skies are full of light and love
But my windows are tinted
With the point blank black above.

Keep driving and I am running on empty.
No where to park my heart and I start
To cry as I come to a halt
And the salt in my tears drips onto
The pavement where I'm meant to spend my years
Stranded and branded all alone.

Fading Tail lights and no tomorrows
Sitting on this curb of grief and sorrow
The keys to my heart dig in
To my thinning skin and red runs cold
Down the Hand no one wants to hold.

"Get in" he says, the one with the blinding headlights.
"I can't," I say, "My heart died and I can't start it."
"We'll share mine," he smiles the smile of a thousand smiles
And all the while I'm blind by this kind pair of headlights.
He gave my heart a jumpstart and it's been parked
Next to his ever since.

© 2009

Her Cardiac Arrest

The artist paints with blood and tears,
Blending pain and coloring fears.
Her brush is armed with scars and hate
Try not to love her, before it's too late.

Breaking hearts is her profession
Her audience - a funeral procession
She'll carve it out with a smile on her face
Without a blink of care, with no love to trace.

Her work is done, her masterpiece finished
Every ounce of happiness in him diminished,
She weeps for the blood that stains her hands
Before her next victim eagerly stands.

Beware of this monster, this creature so vile
Understand, please, before you put her on trial
That my heart had stopped beating all the while.

© 2009

The End of the Beginning

Remember when we would play

Four square or double dutch

Or back in the day

When the sun went down and we laughed so much.

Miss Mary Mack all dressed in black

Takes me back

To the days when youth was proof

Enough to

Soothe our souls and

Satisfy our sorrows.

That day has come and gone,

I suppose,

Replaced by the future, so it goes.

Tears fall, the day's coming fast

In with the new, let's kill the past

Mourn it not, it was good while it lasted

Blasted memories, Casted dreams

Childhood ripped apart at the seams

Let the countdown to the end begin

This game, this war, this life,

We win.

It's over now. Good riddance.

Forgiveness I haven't given

Love that I have hidden

I summon you this day

I can't stay, but I pray

That the stars will align themselves

And alight your way.

© 2009

Chapter One

My pen is my voice
The black ink sinks, soaks, provokes
Words, lines, rhymes
Held back behind walls I built,
Stone by stone, alone.
I take a breath
Inhale, Exhale.
Story of my life.

I, I write.
I wish, I want, I will, I love, I hate
I cry, I dance, I.....don't know what to write
Day and Night
I do this.
Start, stop, drop
Everything.

My pen is my voice
And I've got nothing to say
I want to scream
My dreams are only dreams,
It seems.
I take a breath
Inhale, exhale
Story of my life

You, I write.
You take, I break.
You wish, you want, you will, you won't
You don't I don't
Want to do this.
Start, stop, drop
Everything.
Now the page is filled with You and I.

My pen is my voice and
Melodies bring memories.
He never really could
Harmonize, mezmorize, tantalize, realize
That all I heard were his goodbyes
His story is history
My story's still a mystery.
My sun's set, but my future's bright
I, I write.

I write.
I write and I fight
I delight in the things
Tomorrow's bringing
My pen is my voice
And I am singing ♥


© 2009